librarian trip....i thought it will be a very fun trip for me and her....the day before the trip....over night at jia kent hse.....he was too happy that suet yi told him dat jeh ying might think about it if he confess to her....he was very hyper dat day.....as well for me....i thought it will be a happy trip...the next day sit wen jun car to school.....and me and her didn talk together at 1st....they all sitting all a group...i didn join her group cus i am not form 4....i am in form 5 group....when the bus arrive....he and she sit together...i thought because of they when up the bus 1st ma...so i was nth lo....she kacau my hair all those....den later...they fell asleep....and they were so close....i starting to feel abit pain....

then later reach to gua tempurung....they were walking with each other....on the way inside the gua....they where at everyone behind....and all the ppl keep on say they pak toh....all those....every single of them say those words is like stabbing a knife in my heart.....is so pain....and after getting out of the gua....they were holding hands and walk together and went up the bus...i feel so emo....and almost cry....i was keep on holding my tears.....y at 1st want to ask me to go to this trip....i am from far looking at both of u.....looking at the 1 i love and the friend of mine together.....and at the waterpark....i was injurt...my face had a scratch....u didn feel anything....i do really wan u to come over a comfort me....and i was looking at you both holding hands...having fun together....i feel i have lost in a dark place.....i saw u.....u are the one who take me in this dark place...and left me there......after the whole thing and kimberly keep on say that this car had alot of couple....i really pain.....i am not strong....after the trip...when i was at my room taking the cloth out of my bag....my tears suddenly came out from my eyes....that time....i feel dat no one listen my voice....parents scould me because i hurt my face....all they do is scould at me....i call someone...they all are all busy....y something like dat will happen on me....

i feel like i have at the end of her world.....