librarian trip....i thought it will be a very fun trip for me and her....the day before the trip....over night at jia kent hse.....he was too happy that suet yi told him dat jeh ying might think about it if he confess to her....he was very hyper dat day.....as well for me....i thought it will be a happy trip...the next day sit wen jun car to school.....and me and her didn talk together at 1st....they all sitting all a group...i didn join her group cus i am not form 4....i am in form 5 group....when the bus arrive....he and she sit together...i thought because of they when up the bus 1st ma...so i was nth lo....she kacau my hair all those....den later...they fell asleep....and they were so close....i starting to feel abit pain....

then later reach to gua tempurung....they were walking with each other....on the way inside the gua....they where at everyone behind....and all the ppl keep on say they pak toh....all those....every single of them say those words is like stabbing a knife in my heart.....is so pain....and after getting out of the gua....they were holding hands and walk together and went up the bus...i feel so emo....and almost cry....i was keep on holding my tears.....y at 1st want to ask me to go to this trip....i am from far looking at both of u.....looking at the 1 i love and the friend of mine together.....and at the waterpark....i was injurt...my face had a scratch....u didn feel anything....i do really wan u to come over a comfort me....and i was looking at you both holding hands...having fun together....i feel i have lost in a dark place.....i saw u.....u are the one who take me in this dark place...and left me there......after the whole thing and kimberly keep on say that this car had alot of couple....i really pain.....i am not strong....after the trip...when i was at my room taking the cloth out of my bag....my tears suddenly came out from my eyes....that time....i feel dat no one listen my voice....parents scould me because i hurt my face....all they do is scould at me....i call someone...they all are all busy....y something like dat will happen on me....

i feel like i have at the end of her world.....

i have long time didn come here and blog.....long time....since exam till now....

till holiday....remember is her b'day......dat day....i was really happy....she was really like everything dat i do for her....haha......until that friday.....we going out to sunway piramid.....yes...when we are walking to the bowling area....i duno wat to talk to her......yea...the movie....the archering....and the skate...but at the same time....i saw she msg-ing him.....i really feel dat....even thought i didn really see who was that....is like....i was making a fake face infront of her dat time.....but den.....i really wan to have the best moment with her dat day......yea.....i dun think we will be couple at all.....from the very start.....she has allready told me that....we are not suppose to be together...because of religion......it was the day i really enjoy.....i hug her.....i almost have tear in my eyes dat time....cus it will be the 1st time i hug her and also the last time to hug her.....come back home.....chatting with her at msn....she say that she was sms-ing him...but i feel abit pain la....but just abit...cus i am glad that she tell me who he is........

den sunday.....me,yuen hee,xin wei,wen jun have outing....at 1st.....is ok la....we are talking.....but then...later....they keep on run away from me and jia kent.....i really tired to chase them....haha...wat am i doing.....writing some stupid thing here....haha....that time,they went to wong kok and eat.....actually i wasnt tired.....i am starting to get emo....they are talking....and the same feeling come back.....being left out......but thanks to yuen hee....kick me...haha....make me back to myself abit....now a days i really feel dat she also like me...or maybe i am just being paranoid again..haha..yes..i was really scare of losing her..but....i cant do anything to force her to like me.....just wait or just wait for her to say again that she dont like me.......