audition...

today....audition....i represent krs to sing 2 songs.....1 is kenangan terindah and follow by superman....this two song cant combine together....cus it will be like not nice la.....but they wan it....so ok lo....while i was practicing....i saw wen jun and yuen hee then are dancing....dat time i was thinking alot of things.....but seriously.....dat time....i cant say a word......is like.....i duno what should i say now too.....then later in my turn......teacher say that my slang of BM is very sux.....and say...u got go for BM tuition ah?the others also like u pass ur BM ah??that time....i was laughing...but inside is so hurt....i know...i am bad in BM....but y u need to say something like that??cus it really hurts.....say my slang is like english and sing like chinese style.....that 1 is ok la....but that i really cant tahan....den after the teacher give their oppinion on me....i quickly go back and train my slang....then when jeh ying play their piano....teacher give those oppinion is like...WTF?!they play until so good and u say that they will say is boring.....even yan shan also say that....then they just ask me to come out....they say they wan me to sing for chinese society....and sing tong hua....now i am thinking of changing song...i hope teacher will let us change la.....cus is like...cant just give me a chance??in just 15 min u wan me to change my style and slang of my singing....is very hard...but i really done it....just i am lack of chance.....

now i finally know....why those people that audition or has enter duno how many round and been kick out and even cry....now i am the 1 who really test it....it's really hurt alot.....when back to class.....i fail my Bm...my Add.Math....my Sej....i think i going to fail my moral also....that time....i went outside of my class....i came out and cool down myself....but those noise in my class....the feeling been left out.....i cant hold my own tears.....it came out.......let khin xian them know that i cry.....i hate to cry...i hate to let others saw i cry......but why...everything that i duwan it to happens it happens!!?!my family...my friends....and her.......i hate to be in this world......no one will can about me.....no one will love me......i am just empty......the only thing i still have now is....music.....why all this happen on me?

...why......